Tuesday, December 27, 2011

So ... what's next?

I graduated from college three weeks ago. After 23 years, I finally have a Bachelor's of Science in Marketing Management (I'll pause for applause ... thank you ... ).

I've been working on finishing my degree hard core for the past six years.  I've passed up on parties (OK ... I didn't pass on too many parties), but my social and dating life definitely took a hit.  I gladly sacrificed because finishing this leg of my education was so very, very important to me. 

I'm so very, very proud of myself and my accomplishment, but now I'm overwhelmed with the feeling that there has to be more to life, or more specifically, more to MY life.  What's next?  I spent six years working so hard, something great has to come out of this, right? 

I'm beginning to wonder what defines me.  I'm no longer a student, I'm not a mother, I'm not a wife - what or who am I??

I feel like I need to figure out a way to be more of a citizen of the WORLD than just a "being." 

I've been working on finishing this blog entry for three weeks and it still hasn't come together. My thoughts keep coming out in choppy sentences, so please forgive my lack of flow (and wit, apparently).   I think I'll finish with bullet points ...

- My job does not fulfill, challenge or enlighten me. I need to be fulfilled, challenged and enlightened.
- I need to figure out what my "legacy" will be.  It's unlikely I'll have children, so what will I leave behind?  How will the world remember me? 
- What can I do to be a better citizen of the world?  There are so many people who "need."  What can I do to help?
- Lastly, WTF is wrong with my stomach and why won't it quit churning?  (OK, that really doesn't have anything to do with my philosophical introspection, but my stomach is currently jacked.)

Does anyone have any advice for good, ole Spiffy?  Help me find my way through the forest of questions running through my head ...

1 comment:

  1. You need to find a job writing. Clearly you are talented and enjoy it. Surely some place will appreciate and pay you to do what you love. If others who do get published were half as clever and entertaining as you....

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